I am starting this online journal for myself to write down thoughts, feelings and life that Im going through in hopes that one day I look back and see how things can change. If anybody else chooses to read it and offer advice, experience, or whatever you wish that will be an extra bonus. I am using an annonmous name so that I can be truly honest without the fear of my children or family reading this.
I am a pushing 50 woman with three kids, the last about to graduate from high school. I never dreamed I would be where I am in life.
It all started 28 years ago when I married the most wonderful man with whom I was madly in love and we were best friends. I was his world he was mine. We shared everything. For two years we were happier than I could have ever dreamed.
Kids came, life got busy, we drifted, and push forward to today and we are roomates...He lives his life I live mine.
We have brief moments of good, but they get less and less. I still love him deeply and want the good again.....Over the years Ive hurt him, he has hurt me. Its as if we cant get past that. I dont want to spend the next 25 years in a house living together but alone.....
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