Saturday, July 23, 2011
england
england was good..lots of communication, lots of time...but back to reality very soon...late night working, no phone calls no texts, no communication, no nothing... sometimes i wonder why i even care anymore. i guess its the history... whatever
july 23, 2011
Todays chat
His needs aren being met. I am not a helper never have been, make him feel like everythingn magically happens, dont do thingsthat i say i will do, the last 3 i say 3 years he gave up and quit trying...I say the last 9...Its all my fault...I have caused all the problems...I dont ask I just do...Because I wasnt a helper he is forever changed...never to be the same again and of course thats my fault too...I love our kids more that him even though he does the same thing its different ...of course...he is doing things to make our relationship better...pay bills, plan for future...is that really working on our relationship??? when asked what is a helper...no comment he doesnt know...so if he doesnt know what he wants from me how the heck am I suppose to know...I want a change ...he doesnt know...one day I am going stop caring....
His needs aren being met. I am not a helper never have been, make him feel like everythingn magically happens, dont do thingsthat i say i will do, the last 3 i say 3 years he gave up and quit trying...I say the last 9...Its all my fault...I have caused all the problems...I dont ask I just do...Because I wasnt a helper he is forever changed...never to be the same again and of course thats my fault too...I love our kids more that him even though he does the same thing its different ...of course...he is doing things to make our relationship better...pay bills, plan for future...is that really working on our relationship??? when asked what is a helper...no comment he doesnt know...so if he doesnt know what he wants from me how the heck am I suppose to know...I want a change ...he doesnt know...one day I am going stop caring....
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